i spent yesterday trying to cram pharmy-cology, microbiology, physiology, biochem, radiology, immunology, embryology, histology, and some random clinical crap all relating to the respiratory system. no go. what do i care about 500 equations for how the air swooshes around in your lungs? how many differential diagnosisisisis do i have for “sore throat” or “hacking up a lung”? did you know you have erectile tissue in your nose?

the test was short, but not fun. school has far lost its happy-shiny-ness. i need a vacation. seriously. i plan to be sedated for most of the 4 days of thanksgiving. and maybe a little bit after that. i stayed at school for a little while to chat and catch up on gossip with cherie and cat. there are some fun-ky things going on in my class. i’m just happy that i’m so far removed from it- my problems are all G-rated. cherie gave me a dave ‘n buster’s card. woo hoo! i’m not quite sure what it’s for… mebbe playing games or something? what happened to quarters? tokens? oh well, we’ll find out tonight. ryan, mom, annie and i will be there for dinner and goofing off. hopefully, we won’t be out too late ’cause….

i have two more tests to study for. i’m meeting the kids at the omm lab at 9am on a saturday morning to poke and prod and diagnose and treat. i just hope i don’t end up limping home. letting people treat problems you don’t really have can be quite painful.

…and then there’s the dreams. last night, after pho, after studying, after a million cups of tea, and after chatting with the boy, i dozed off and into the strangest dreams i’ve had in a long, long time. i only wish i could remember it all right now, but what i do remember is strange enough. i open a closet door and see a large black and white spider hanging next to a plastic dinosaur. the spider starts spazzing and the plastic dinosaur comes to life and starts barking at me. barking cough. acute laryngitis. and then ryan comes out of the bathroom and says he can’t take a shower in there. i open the door and turn on the water, then turn on the lights and find a bathtub full of fish in ice. large fish. i figure it’s normal, so i turn off the water and leave. then, i’m kissing some boy underneath a pink sheet. and then it all repeats. i keep opening the closet door, even though i know there’s a spider and a barking dinosaur in there, and i keep going into the bathroom with the fish and thinking they’re still alive, but then realizing that they’re on ice…. but then thinking that they might come alive again. annie and my dad were there somewhere, too. i just can’t remember where.

and, ’cause it’s friday and i’m avoiding work, here’s the analysis:

Seeing a closet in your dream, symbolizes something in your life that you have kept hidden. It may also signify an unveiling of previously hidden aspects of yourself, as in “coming out of the closet”.

Seeing a spider in your dream indicates that you are feeling like an outsider in some situation. Or that you may want to keep your distance and stay away from an alluring and tempting situation. The spider is also symbolic of feminine power. Alternatively, a spider may refer to a powerful force protecting you against your self-destructive behavior. On a negative note, spiders may indicate a feeling of being entangled or trapped in a sticky or clingy relationship. It represents some ensnaring and controlling force. You may feel that someone or some situation is sucking the life right out of you.

Seeing a dead fish means disappointment and loss of power/wealth.

Seeing ice in your dream, suggests that you are lacking a flow of ideas and thoughts. You are not seeing in progress in your life. Alternatively, you may be feeling emotionally paralyzed or rigid. You need to let your feelings be known.

Dreaming of a bathtub, suggests a need for self-renewal and escape from everyday problems. You need to rid yourself of the burdens that you have been carrying. Alternatively, it indicates your mood for love and pursuit of pleasure and relaxation.

Dreaming of a kiss indicates love, affection, tranquility, harmony, and contentment. If you are kissing a close friend, then it represents your respect and adoration for your friend. You are seeking some intimate closeness that is lacking in some waking relationship. It may or may not signify a romantic interest for him or her. If you are kissed by a stranger, then your dream is one of self-discovery. You need to get more acquainted with some aspect of yourself.

fun-ky. my brain needs a rest.

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